My First “Real” Relationship
I officially dated one guy during my senior year of high school. This relationship will demonstrate how low my self-worth was in this season.
For privacy reasons, we will call this boy Paul. Paul and I officially dated for a month-ish during our senior year. We went to different high schools but had met through a mutual friend and really enjoyed spending time together.
Towards the end of the school year, that one big event was quickly approaching…You know what event I am talking about.... Prom. Most people probably love looking at their prom photos and reminiscing about the “good ‘ole days”?
Well, not me. I deleted every photo I have of that time frame – a bit dramatic, I know.
See, Paul had recently broken up with his ex-girlfriend when we started dating. When the subject of prom came up he confided in me that he had already promised to take his ex to prom. She had bought a dress, so he would feel horrible backing out on his commitment. To 17 year old me, that made a lot of sense. I admired him for his commitment and naïvely believed him. At one point, our mutual friend who introduced us, told me that Paul wasn’t telling the truth; he never actually broke up with his ex.
I thought he was just jealous. I went to prom with my chemistry lab partner and Paul went to prom with his ex-girlfriend. Come to find out Paul had never broken up with her and had lied to me the entire time. GASP! At this point, you would cut ties and go about your merry way, right?
Well, fool me twice.
Yes, I was pissed with him, but somehow he managed to weasel his way back into my life. Worthless Cynthia thought it was better to maintain that emotional attachment even though he had another girl friend. He just felt really bad for her and didn’t think she was stable enough to handle a break up. At least now he was finally honest with me. I was the one who won in this situation (insert sarcasm).
Things I Wish I Would Have Known
> Just because he was honest with you, doesn’t make it right. Cheating is always wrong.
> No matter how hard you try, you will NEVER find fulfillment in another human. They will always let you down. Instead, look to the heavenly father. When you give your heart tos God, He will fulfill your every need.
> Weight is a descriptor, it does not define you.
> The goal should be strong, not skinny.
> Going to prom with a significant other is not a necessity. I allowed the fact that I “had” to go with a friend ruin any chance of fun I could have had.
> Comparison is a trap. Just because someone else is pretty doesn’t mean you can’t be pretty. Just because someone is skinnier than you, doesn’t mean they are healthier.